2019 has started out way better than 2018. It's still crazy to think an entire year has past since the awful that began 2018. I'm not saying all of 2018 was bad, but... It was all bad.
I restarted my life toward the end of 2018 instead of trying to move forward. Restarting was the right way to go.
I live in a one bedroom apartment by myself.
I have no job currently.
And I love it.
I haven't lived in an apartment in... 5 years? And that was just for a few months. Before then it was at least another 4.
But having a full kitchen for just me... It's great! I'm marinating steaks for carne asada tonight.
It has been a LONG time since my last blog post. I was using it for therapeutic reasons and to get out of my head. I guess I don't need that anymore. Since I left "What I miss" on my last blog post. I totally found a Karaoke spot for a couple months. Unfortunately, I am no longer really welcome there on the day I used to go. That's a long story that I'd rather not tell on a public forum.
Other things are new. I have a bearded dragon. His name is Smaug. I was quite lonely living at my dads and I learned how to take care of Bearded dragons with Kristi. A friend offered me the dragon, and I chose to take it. It was therapeutic to have another being around and I liked having something to take care of again.
I left my job at CP. It was a personal decision. I've been on the job hunt since. Truth be told, I thought it would be easier to find work than it has been - but I'm in no dire straights. I have money saved from trying to buy a house, the majority of my credit cards have been paid off (and thus usable). Even so, I'd like to have a job soon, before it becomes a concern.
Because I have a small place to maintain and no job, I've found myself with quite a bit of time. I am not using enough of it effectively, but I am hoping to change that. I recently had a conversation with my lovely new girlfriend about my weight. Now, she loves me the way I am, but she made a mention that the medical "ideal" weight for someone my height sounds unreasonable. I saw this as a challenge to try and get there. She doesn't know this yet... but I'm sure she'll know soon. This will mostly consist of dieting, but heading to the gym never hurt me before. Now that I am in a happier state of mind, it might be something I can stick to.
I'm getting Linux back soon. The moment I have a job, I am paying to allow him into my apartment. I could afford it now, but I figure Linux is super safe and comfortable with my mom. There is no rush.
Ya'll already know this, but I am dating a new wonderful woman named Monica. It is weird, if I'm honest. Not weird in a bad way, just... you get used to coming home to the same person with the same dogs and house and routine. I talked to Monica about this (cause she has a similar, but different story) and she hugged me close and understands it's not so much missing the ex, but missing the future that was there. The future was laid out, it was planned, and it was certain. And now I'm in a one bedroom apartment. If I'd been told a year ago that I'd be alone in a one bedroom apartment, I'd have thought the world literally ended. Again, it isn't bad. I need to stress that it isn't bad, because I am happier than I have been in a long time. But it is a bit weird.
This blog is going to change a bit over the next couple of months. I still want to write in it, but its no longer going to be something for my brain to lose its tick, or for any other therapeutic reasons. Currently, I'm thinking short stories - Donna and Daniel got me a book "Write a Story" featuring key words that are needed. I might transfer that over to this. That kinda sounds like fun.
Speaking of which, Hodger 2 has been collecting digital cobwebs over the past two months. It's time I dust that off and put some digital pen to digital paper.
Thank you for reading,
Shepsus
Because I have a small place to maintain and no job, I've found myself with quite a bit of time. I am not using enough of it effectively, but I am hoping to change that. I recently had a conversation with my lovely new girlfriend about my weight. Now, she loves me the way I am, but she made a mention that the medical "ideal" weight for someone my height sounds unreasonable. I saw this as a challenge to try and get there. She doesn't know this yet... but I'm sure she'll know soon. This will mostly consist of dieting, but heading to the gym never hurt me before. Now that I am in a happier state of mind, it might be something I can stick to.
I'm getting Linux back soon. The moment I have a job, I am paying to allow him into my apartment. I could afford it now, but I figure Linux is super safe and comfortable with my mom. There is no rush.
Ya'll already know this, but I am dating a new wonderful woman named Monica. It is weird, if I'm honest. Not weird in a bad way, just... you get used to coming home to the same person with the same dogs and house and routine. I talked to Monica about this (cause she has a similar, but different story) and she hugged me close and understands it's not so much missing the ex, but missing the future that was there. The future was laid out, it was planned, and it was certain. And now I'm in a one bedroom apartment. If I'd been told a year ago that I'd be alone in a one bedroom apartment, I'd have thought the world literally ended. Again, it isn't bad. I need to stress that it isn't bad, because I am happier than I have been in a long time. But it is a bit weird.
This blog is going to change a bit over the next couple of months. I still want to write in it, but its no longer going to be something for my brain to lose its tick, or for any other therapeutic reasons. Currently, I'm thinking short stories - Donna and Daniel got me a book "Write a Story" featuring key words that are needed. I might transfer that over to this. That kinda sounds like fun.
Speaking of which, Hodger 2 has been collecting digital cobwebs over the past two months. It's time I dust that off and put some digital pen to digital paper.
Thank you for reading,
Shepsus
