This recipe is not for cooking.

I've stacked a lot on my plate recently and have become slightly overwhelmed. Not in the sense of "overworked," but in the sense of "too much". I just stopped working on it. I want it to be done already, instead of getting it done.

The only thing that I have been doing is writing, and even that has been on and off. I had a friend suggest that I should try writing as a profession, which I would absolutely love, if I could do it for hours on end without getting distracted. I am starting to think that I need someone on me to get stuff done, which kinda makes me disappointed in myself (as I finish this, Kristi is watching Glee, and keeps yelling at me to write my blog).

Anyway, I'm thinking about putting stuff on the back burner, but which ones? 

------Fast forward five nights ---

So I made a post on my FB on March 8th that I felt a Blog post coming on, but I did get distracted with Glee and spending time with my lady. So now we're here on March 13th. I gotta tell ya, my original idea for this was to write about my stress. But I talked it over with Kristi and then my good friends Mike G and JBoom. I gotta tell ya, keeping stuff bottled inside is such a hassle compared to talking it out. I don't think I could talk to anyone as easy as I have been able to with Kristi. She's amazing.

But this blog's about me. Nyeh!

I still feel this overwhelmed sensation, but after talking it through with her I have a clearer head as to what to do about it. I'll try to break it down without being too revealing. Mysterious is sexy, is it not?

I took on not only A Literature Circle, but A Cooking Circle, Hiking videos, and 5k runs to make and edit. I didn't do it right away, because work got a bit busy with work, and at home, well, Netflix was just easier. But no one else will edit them but me.Not only would that happen, but in order to post them I felt I needed a good logo, so I needed to create logos for both ALC and ACC, along with a new one I am trying to put together... After I created the logos I would be just wiped and started watching Netflix instead of actually editing videos. To be honest? I still haven't edited videos... But after a long talk with Kristi, I have intentionally put that on a back burner till we get our office set up for us to both work together. And that has just taken a load off my back. I am getting a new desk to put in the office this week, where I can set up my laptop in a semi-permanent location, so Kristi can have her desk, and then we'll work side by side on the projects.

The idea of trying to write professionally has manifested itself to the back of my mind, and I am seriously considering it. That idea also overwhelmed me, because I have an idea on how to do it as well, to get my name out there. And with that came the idea of pictures and/or artists, partner writers, marketing, traveling, the production, the website, the demographic, the AAHH. But, again, I talked with Kristi and I was able to take a step back and think. Before the pictures, people, marketing, selling, and the business, I need to do one simple thing.

I need to write.

I do not have enough solid content to consider a book. I don't have enough of my stuff to consider the big picture. The one thing great actors do to for a role is prepare. I need the preparation before the movie. I need the script before the picture. I need my ideas to be there to be presentable before they can be presented. And that's what I'm gonna do. I've even decided to prepare my preparation. I've written out a timeline for "Drave" starting with "Year 0" for the first story and I like how it is going to progress. (Don't worry, Year 0 is just for my sake, I'll give a solid timeline for said stories.)

For those who haven't read "Drave", there is about a twelve year gap between story 2 and story 3. Well, I am slowly filling that gap with one or two stories.

 So write.

I am going to write and write and write. That's my plan.

And, then someday, you will see something. I know I have the talent, I am developing the skill, and I am learning the how-to. 

I think I got the proper recipe.

Not ~Just a thought

What do you desire? What makes you itch? What sort of a situation would you like if money was no object?

When we finally got down to something,  I will say do that, and forget the money, because, if you say that getting the money is the most important thing, you will spend your life completely wasting your time. You’ll be doing things you don’t like doing in order to go on living, that is to go on doing things you don’t like doing, which is stupid. Better to have a short life that is full of what you like doing than a long life spent in a miserable way.
--Excerpt from Alan Watt's speech.